Mood:
d'ohWell it has been an interesting road traveled these last 2 months. There have been many changes in my life since I last posted. Some have been good changes and have made me very happy and some have left me sad.
So let's see what has happened this last few months.
June ended with great sorrow and unhappiness in my life. I hurt a few people that were very dear to me. For that I am dreadfully sorry. I wish there was a way to turn back time. I only hope that in time the people that I hurt will forgive me. I miss having them in my life.
July brought more hot weather in Iraq. But more so it brought pain into a person's life who didn't deserve it. I wish the pain could be erased and a friendship was still there. But the pain was to great and a friendship was lost. For this I am very sad.
For most of July I was in Counseling to determine what in my life I wanted and needed. Where did I want to see myself in the future. How was I going to achieve my own happiness. For too many years I relied on others to make me happy instead of doing it myself. I had to take a hard look at myself and my relationships with others. I wish I could have had the guidance of my best friend during these times but I understand why they couldn't be in my life anymore.
The end of July came around and it was time for me to go on leave. The person I had chosen to try to build a relationship and I went back to the states together. This was a test to see if our relationship could weather life outside Iraq. It was difficult for me to adjust back to life in the US. It put a strain on our relationship but we managed to make it through 2 weeks without any major ordeals. We learned much about each other.
Mid August brought unhappiness as I headed back to Iraq to finish the last 4 months on my contract. Little did I know that God had very different plans in store for me. On the 12th I returned to Baghdad to tie up some lose ends there when I left for an outlying post in June. A long story short. The male population where I was working decided they didn't want a female in the midst of their world. My company tried to find a different location for me to work but were unsuccessful. So in one week I packed up all my belongings in two locations in Iraq and sent them home. On Sunday the 20th I boarded a plane for outprocessing back in the states. This was the quickest process I have ever encountered with the military. Once we arrived at the outprocessing location it only took 1/2 day to finish and by mid afternoon I was on a plane to Tampa, Fl.
22 Aug, Arrived in Tampa to so much humidity I thought I was swimming. It is now 2am and I am so tired that all I want to do is sleep. I arrived to the warm and loving arms that had put me on the plane back to Iraq a week sooner. He had been my rock through the ordeal I had just went through and was holding me up through the one I was about to face. I am unemployeed. Well it is off to meet his family. Things there were nice and relaxing.
23/24 Aug. It is the long drive to NC. We leave in the evening after dinner. It is in Jacksonville, Fl that neither of us are in any condition to drive so we stop and sleep at a really comfortable hotel. The next morning (24) we finish the trip.
24 Aug I am home. I slept for what seemed an eternity then I enjoyed shopping, driving and exploring with the person that God had given me to love. Things were easier this time and life wasn't so foreign to me. I was adjusting.
The next few weeks went by in a blur of packing and signing paperwork for the job God put in my life. I had interviewed for a position in Kuwait almost a month ago. I was finally made the offer and life was looking brigher on the employment front. One night as we sat together after dinner. While reading the new company employee handbook a gentle hand reached out and took mine and with so much love I was asked if I would marry. I didn't hesitate.... yes was my answer.
Time was crucial because neither of us had much of it. He was due to return to Iraq on 1 Sept and I was to leave for Kuwait on the 4th. It is now the 28th or 29th. We got our license and were married with a few friends from the area on the morning of the 30th.
Two days later I put him on that plane to Iraq. This was the hardest day I had experienced in a very long time. But no rest. I had a plane to board just 3 days later.
A week in VA for inprocessing and off to Kuwait.
I am now starting my 3rd week and things are going well. I enjoy the people I work with and the job is interesting and challenging. I thank God for all the goodness he has given me. Professionally I have never been happier.
Next on the agenda is to get my new husband out of Iraq and into Kuwait with me. We have tilled the soil and planted the seeds. We are praying for God to give us the life that we both want so dearly.
Life is near perfect now. There is still sadness over the loss of someone I have a great respect for. I can only hope in time he will understand and see the happiness in my life. I hope that one day I will see an email from him saying hello.
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Until next month....
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